Archive for February, 2010

First Swim Class

Friday, February 26th, 2010

Karen signed Courtney up for swim class and then promptly left town for the first one, leaving me in charge. I was a little apprehensive because I haven’t spent a whole lot of solo time in public. I’m not exactly the best judge of social protocol by myself, let alone with a child. So far my new experiences with Courtney have been as a family unit – Mom always around to reassure and stuff. I’m not sure I’m well equipped to deal with a total kid freak out on my own.

My biggest concern was being responsible for some traumatic water experience that would have her hate the water for life. I want her to love the water so much and don’t want to do anything that would prevent it. I mean, how else is she going to be a future surfing champion if she doesn’t like the water! heh.

When I arrived at the Y, I was relieved that they had a men’s family locker room. At least I wouldn’t have to figure all of the logistics out with tons of people milling all around. Changing Courtney into her swimsuit and stuff was actually a lot easier than I anticipated. She was a real champ about the whole thing, even sitting on the bench patiently while I changed into my suit.

When we walked into the pool area I was relieved that it was warm. In fact, I was concerned that it was too warm! It was like Summer in the tropics. I was a little lost upon entering the area. There were lots and lots of kids of various ages all over the place. I finally found my little corner and we settled down to wait the five minutes until our class. Courtney sat on my lap very quietly and took it all in.

The instructor lady finally told us it was time and to get into the pool. This is where things started to go south. As soon as we started to climb in the tears began to flow. There were about 8 kids and their parents and Courtney was the only one who didn’t want to be there. All of the other kids were having a blast.

She continued to cry for at least 15 minutes. At one point I asked the instructor what I should do and she said “if it were me I’d keep her in so she gets used to the water,” so I did. She finally quit crying, but she certainly wasn’t enjoying it. She was still digging her nails into my back as she clung for dear life.

The instructor was singing all kinds of kids songs, expecting us all to sing along and participate. I knew I was lacking in the childhood  song area, but had no idea just how bad until this class. It’s a good thing I mumble naturally, because I didn’t know any of the words.

As the class was winding down Courtney finally let go of her death grip and let me float her around a bit. Just a bit! If I let her get too far away the tears would return. Needless to say, she was quite happy to get out.

Walking out of the tropics and back into the reality of the Winter locker room didn’t do much to help Courtney’s mood. But we got sort of rinsed off, changed and on our way home. Logistically all that changing stuff is a bit challenging.

Except for the whole part about Courtney not liking the water, I say things went swimmingly well (sorry, couldn’t resist). At least, from a solo trip in public perspective.

Reassuring Mom will be in attendance for this week’s swim class. I’m hoping things go a bit better. Perhaps we’ll even see a smile.

Flying Solo Part Deux

Sunday, February 21st, 2010

Karen went out to Houston for the Mom 2.0 Summit this weekend sans baby, which means Daddy was in charge. She left Thursday late morning and my sister was gracious enough to take Courtney for the afternoon until I finished up at work to start the second solo weekend since Courtney arrived 15 months ago.

I’m really not sure how single parents manage. I guess you do what you have to do, but it must be so incredibly hard. It’s like working two full time jobs, providing very little personal time.

Karen and I have a pretty good routine worked out. Monday through Friday I go to the salt mines to earn a paycheck and Karen tends to the baby and stuff (stuff being the technical term for a ton of other stuff). I try to leave the salt mines as close to 6:00 PM so I can spend a little bit of time with Courtney before I start the Bath, Books and Bed routine at 7:00. When the weekend rolls around, I take Saturday morning duty so Karen has a chance to rest, and Karen takes Sunday morning. So we both get a little bit of a break from the daily grind at least once a week.

So this whole flying solo bit really makes for a long couple of weeks. It’s like working 14 days straight by the time next Sunday rolls around.

I know providing child care all day is no picnic, but if you do it every day you have a much better handle on when and what she likes to eat, play, etc. Being in tune with the schedule is much easier. So while I take Saturday morning and share the remainder of the weekend, it’s not really enough to keep up with her evolution at the detail level. And the baby knows something’s up and isn’t necessarily herself either. So it’s more challenging (aka stressful) to figure things out than it is for Karen.

That all being said, I think I fared pretty well all things considered. Our first stop on Friday was to the mall to get her a strawberry and banana smoothie, which she just LOVES. Then we stopped off at my office to show Courtney off to my coworkers and partake in the weekly Root Beer Club. Root Beer Club is where people rotate bringing in root beer for the group and we hang out and have a drink to end the week – sort of a team building event. It’s gotten pretty competitive as people try to outdo each other in taste, locale, etc. Finally, we met some friends out for happy hour. For the record, it was at a family friendly sports bar/restaurant. They even had crayons for Courtney to eat. Since we were gallivanting around all afternoon, Courtney didn’t get an afternoon nap, but she took it all in stride like she normally does.

Saturday was even more ambitious! In the morning we went to the first swimming class of the season and in the afternoon we visited the Georgia Aquarium, both of which I’ll write about separately since they were fairly interesting on their own.

On Sunday, Karen took pity on us and took an earlier flight and was home by lunch. Courtney was quite excited to see her to say the least. Since the weather was so incredibly nice we ventured out for lunch at Fellini’s Pizza and then went to Chastain Park for some fun.

All three solo nights were abnormally difficult. Girl just had a hard time sleeping and kept waking up. Now that Karen is back I guess we’ll find out if it was because she missed her. Considering how much we did on this long weekend and the complete lack of sleep, this week in the salt mines should be extra-special fun.

I spent a little extra effort to ensure the place looked good for Karen’s arrival because I know that sort of stuff is important to her. I cleaned up the kitchen, straightened out the toys, and even made the bed. The place looked a lot better than when she left! She either didn’t notice, or wasn’t impressed. At least I tried.

Anyway, I guess that’s about all but the relatively poor images from my iPhone…

We know who was really in control in Karen's absence.

We know who was really in control in Karen's absence.

My sister made some stir fry Thursday night and Courtney liked the chopsticks

My sister made some stir fry Thursday night and Courtney liked the chopsticks

Ready to take over the corporate world. Plenty of time to sit in a cube, don't rush it kid!

Ready to take over the corporate world. Plenty of time to sit in a cube, don't rush it kid!

Reading books on my back. Impressive when you consider it's a self portrait from an iPhone laying on my stomach.

Reading books on my back. Impressive when you consider it's a self portrait from an iPhone laying on my stomach.

Climbing on Daddy

Climbing on Daddy

More Daddy climbing

More Daddy climbing

A big smoothie for a little girl, but she can put it away!

A big smoothie for a little girl, but she can put it away!

Some Day…

Sunday, February 7th, 2010

I lost an old friend this week in a rather unlikely event. Steve Schafer was killed by a shark in my home town earlier in the week while he was kite boarding. You can read more about the attack here. I was a senior in high school and he was a freshman when I met him. Since I had a car and was captain of the surf team, I would drive him around Florida to surf contests and generally try to keep him on a good path (away from the stereotypes of a surfer). Though I didn’t have to try too hard. He was a genuinely good person who got along with everybody and looked after the guys younger than him as he grew older.

After high school he went to college in California (smart move for a surfer). I saw him a few times here and there, but ultimately lost contact with him. Then the whole facebook thing happened. After friending each other on FB we sent a few notes back in forth. He had moved back to Stuart and had been there for a few years.

Karen and I were headed to Stuart for a week to help my Mom out after her full knee replacement surgery last October. I told him I’d give him a call when we got there and we’d meet up for lunch or something to catch up. Once we got to Stuart it became apparent that actually “doing” anything was going to be difficult. Our daughter (11 months at the time) had to sleep a lot, and she was off schedule after our drive down so it was difficult to schedule anything. As a result, I never called him because I thought it’d just be too difficult to get together. I figured I’d just catch him next time when our daughter was older and easier to drag along. We exchanged emails a several times over the past few weeks and I was looking forward to my next Stuart visit.

So I had an opportunity to see my friend and I took a pass to wait for a better/easier time in the future. And now I’ll never see him again.

Now, he was a very active waterman (and exceptional at everything). He surfed, sailed, windsurfed, kite boarded, etc. And he never really stopped. But I wonder if there were things that he was putting off, thinking “I’ll get to it some day.”

He was three years younger than me, and it’s really had me thinking more about life in general. There are a number of things that I keep saying “some day” about. I’ve even some dayed myself on a few things for decades. I think I’m like a lot of people, afraid to step out of their comfort zone. It’s comfortable having a good job, nice house, and generally a good quality life style. Stepping away from what you know and who you know just doesn’t seem like an easy thing to do.

Some day I want to…

1. Move back to the beach. I moved to Atlanta for a job opportunity and planned on being here for maybe a year, two tops. That was a dozen years ago. When I was younger, in my surfing prime, I knew a few guys from the beach who moved to landlocked cities and I remember being somewhat indignant about the idea of it. I couldn’t fathom how somebody who loved the ocean that much could ever move away from it. I guess that makes me a hypocrite. I want my daughter to know the ocean in a similar way that I knew it once.

2. Do some exploring by sailboat. I would love to jump on a sailboat for a while and just go explore places that are otherwise inaccessible. It would be a great learning opportunity for our daughter, as sailing has a lot of life lessons. Living in close quarters, with limited resources, meeting people of different cultures are all great lessons. And it’d be fun to be “Vacation Paul” for more than a week at a time.

3. Surf a truly great wave. Surfing was a huge part of my life, and I was good at it – still am if I can paddle my fat, cubicle-lunged ass into a wave. The problem is I grew up in Florida. Florida has good surf on occasion, but the rides are generally short and inconsistent in nature. I’ve surfed in Hawaii, Mexico and Central America, but I’ve never surfed any of the “perfect” wave spots that you see in the magazines and movies. For example, there are places in Indonesia where you can catch a barrel for 5 or more seconds on EVERY wave – each one rolling in perfectly formed for hundreds of yards. I’ve mind-surfed waves like that for 30 years and haven’t made it to one yet.

4. Own my own business. I get really frustrated trying to convince people to do the right thing for the company instead of what’s good for themselves – not having enough authority to make a real difference. I’d love to be able to just do the right thing all the time.

5. Make it to all of the continents. I’ve traveled a fair bit, but not enough. I’ve only made it to N. America (naturally), Europe (airports only so hardly counts) and Asia (East and West). Hopefully, a trip to Karen’s heritage in Columbia will take care of S. America (Panama is as close as I’ve gotten).

6. Win the lottery. Winning the lottery would make the above possible without jeopardizing the family economics. Whoever said money can’t buy happiness was missing something. From what I can tell, most of life’s stresses are caused by lack of money. After all, work is a four letter word for a reason. I’d love to spend all of the time with my family instead, exploring and having fun.

For me it really comes down to responsibility. Now that I have a family to provide for I feel like I have to stay the course and abandon my selfish desires. Walking away from a good job and comfy home just doesn’t seem very responsible. Heck, walking away from subsidized group health insurance is daunting enough. So perhaps I’m just destined to dream instead of act. Unless, of course, number 6 becomes a reality. Then it’s game on! heh.

Taxes and Children

Wednesday, February 3rd, 2010

I’ve long had a view that there should be no tax deductions for children. I know that’s not a popular stance, but I’ve spent the bulk of my adult life single. It used to irritate me that I was shouldering more of the tax burden as a single male (and health insurance costs, too!). The thought of a family with three children paying much less tax and consuming far greater resources would just burn me up.

Now that I have a child and get to pay less tax it still burns me up. It just doesn’t make any sense. If anything, people who choose to have children should bear a greater responsibility of doing so. We shouldn’t financially incentivise people to have children.

It’s not like we need to grow armies of people so we can overtake nations. We don’t need a bunch of kids to offset the odds of mortality as large farming families used to do. Technology has changed things a lot. Population growth is not something that should be encouraged at all really. The Earth is barely making it as is. Nobody needs 10 kids. And they certainly shouldn’t get 10 deductions for being so silly.

Having children is not something to be taking lightly. Nobody should enter into such and endeavor if they don’t have the means to support it – work hard to get to a place where you can provide for a family first. You don’t have to be rich, but if you can’t afford to take care of yourself then you shouldn’t be having children.

Yes, I know it’s not that easy and that there are some social problems with it all. But if you really look at it objectively it’s hard to argue the logic.

Let the flaming commence!